Hi dusty,
Oh my, it's almost a year since I wrote something here. Lots of ups and downs, laugh and tears. Where am I now?
I'm working as an economic officer in a ministry, staying at the Government place. I thank Allah for everything He planned and i seek forgiveness and strength to be His good servant.
How do i feel?I'm spiritually weak, unlike before, I'm not determine as i used to be, i feel lonely and I look forward to meet new people, see new things and beautiful places on earth. I still have that dream to go outside to see and mix with good people, good manners and attitude. I'm thankful for where am I now. And I know, i have to strategize of how to achieve my dream. I want to be a happy working mother. I want to have a good relationship with both families. Alhamdulillah, I'm planning to enter an adult phase of life soon. I know things are not easy but i will keep praying to Him walaupun dalam keaadan berdosa. :/
This journey, my work life, my personal life and my future life will give me pressure but i hope i could manage. Oh Allah, please give me strength and allow me to meet and enjoy the friendship that i used to cherish in my university days. After graduated, it's hard for me to find that kind of circle who would help you with complaining. Cadetship did change how i see things.
Sometimes, i do feel scared and tired and I'm spiritually weak. I hope I could improvise myself. I thank MSH, Faizah for always there for me. I still remember that Kak Kiah and Kak Haz wanna go to US with me this year...but i dont have money and yeah,it deters me to see that part of the world. But, it's okay Allah Maha Kaya so keep believing and keep on praying.
Be humble, be strong.
bye for now!
"Those who love you are not fooled by mistakes you have made
or dark images you hold about yourself. They remember your
beauty when you feel ugly; your wholeness when you are
broken;
your innocence when you feel guilty; and your purpose when
you are confused.” ― Alan Cohen