What a life...

Today is the last day of me at MITI. I really can feel the broken in me towards the end of cadetship. I miss my mom a lot these days. I miss her terribly. I need someone who can appreciate every single thing that i do. I need the love that i don't receive from my parents, the due respect the i really need. I love my adik-adik no doubt. I need something that i don't receive from anyone.

sad life.


Oh Allah...please help me.....

:'(

Sedih

I think i try to compromise my feelings. I know separation is needed but i just do not know what or how to do. I am a sad person and i really love if people would love me without condition. I am not a perfect person and i really need motivation and support in my life. I need people who love to do things with me. I need a friend who would listen to my rambling about love,about life and about the future.

I need a true friendship. I seek honesty in any relationship.

Oh Allah, why i feel bad about myself, why i cannot be like any other persons who have their love one around them...i need emotional support, motivation and people who survived from the struggle in life and optimist about the future.

Currently, I have no one who is serious with me. I'm just a sad person pretending to be happy.


I cannot choose because i don't have choice.

I know my feelings but i do not know whether it is good or bad.

When i really love someone, i will show it,,,my action speaks louder than my say

I pray hopefully things will be a good ending to my future


 but where do i start..

Oh Allah help me....send someone to love me...i need to rest in arms...in pouring rain....



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Menghampiri

Oh blog, im sorry for neglecting you. There're so many things to do with so little time. Currently, we're approaching to the end of cadetship. Today is the last day of study week and i'm not prepared at all. I did some reading but oh myy,,i feel it's not enough..huuuuuuuuuu...nak nangis..........

I will do my internship at MITI after finishing the exam for 2 weeks.Hmmmm 

Yesterday, my adik involved in accident.He fell from his bike, broke the side mirror, suffered from dislocate shoulder and scracthes all over body.... i felt so sad bcoz he's alone in the house, no one to help him with the injury... may he become a man with a strong heart one day insya-Allah.


Today is mother's day. I miss my mom terribly. May Allah bless her soul. Ameen. Al-Fatihah.

I pray to Allah to give me a good husband and a good in law so that i can feel the love. I have not met my true love yet. My favourite man who is worth to share my life with. I just have not met you yet my future favourite man and i hope we can meet and tie the knot soon. Yes, im very serious about tying the knot. 

I need a drive in my life and i hope this favourite man can motivate, guide, love me unconditionally. I need someone who is brave enough to 'take my hand', 'hold me tight' and never let me go, wipe my tears and share the journey of life together. Right now, there's no one appears yet.

I will wait and wait and wait. If my favourite man does not show up, i guess he waits for me in the heaven...

As of now, i need to concentrate on my study. We all need love and hopefully we'll get it..insya-Allah.

Cadetship is about to over..

and we are all waiting for the end to come...





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